I often ask myself, “Why is it so difficult for me to___________________?” Here are just a FEW things that I’ve used to fill in the blank: exercise, have more patience, be a better listener, not judge others, forgive, pray, organize the junk drawer in my kitchen, accomplish the things on my list, simply make a to do list! I could ramble on for quite some time naming the difficulties I have but the one that has been hitting me like a ton of bricks recently is………give up control.
I’ve been doing A LOT of soul searching, reading books, and praying to find the answer and it FINALLY came to me. The answer is Fear. It’s that simple……….It is difficult for me to give up control in EVERY area of my life because I FEAR the unknown. I’ve been fooling myself for years thinking that I had all the answers and that if I could just maintain control in EVERY situation and relationship it would be best for everyone involved. Seriously, I thought that…….silly me!!
How was that working for me? NOT VERY WELL!! I was miserable. My life was out of control. The very thing that I thought I was controlling was OUT OF CONTROL! I crumbled, I was defeated, I couldn’t do it anymore, I hit rock bottom (that experience I will share in another blog).
As I look back to that time just a short six months ago, I am grateful. I’ve embraced the experiences in my past and have chosen to find the good in the bad. But, now what? Changes needed to be made or I would end up right back where I was……miserable.
I thank God for putting people in my life who speak truth to me and kick me in the butt to tell me what I NEED to hear not what I want to hear. It wasn’t enough for me to just be grateful, embrace my past, find good from the bad, etc. I needed to do something about it. I needed to take action – UGH!!! Taking action may be one of the most difficult things to do sometimes. It’s easy to talk about it but to actually do it IS WORK. What I’m realizing is that if I am NOT taking action I’m either getting “stale” or falling backwards and I do NOT want to go backwards and to me stale stinks!
So, baby steps…………to give up control. Remember this is just one of my difficulties/challenges/character defects – but you gotta start somewhere, right? I’m taking baby steps to give up control and trusting God with my life. He goes before me and paves the way; I want His plan to be my plan. I want to grow NOT be stale, this is the desire of my heart. The daily challenge for me is I want to take my control back, out of fear! My simple prayer is this, God your will be done, not mine. I’m saying this little prayer no less than 100 times some days and He is piece by piece showing me his plan and I LIKE IT!!!
I truly believe that one piece to the puzzle is Keeping it Personal. God woke me one morning at 3:00 a.m. with the Who are we….on my heart. I couldn’t go back to sleep until I had it all typed up and saved on my computer. A month later were taking action. We’ve decided to go, move forward, and like my husband often says to me, “do something!” As we start this journey down a path that is unknown to us we are trusting God to pave the way. With keeping it personal we want to be a blessing and make a difference in the lives of others by sharing our experiences – which in turn blesses us. That’s what we know right now.
Leah and I want to encourage you connect with us with your comments, feedback, and suggestions; we WANT to hear from YOU!! We are going to do our best to provide you with a daily KIP; this is a suggestion/idea on ways to keep it personal in your interactions with others, via our blog, Facebook, and Twitter.
So much to be thankful for………Happy Thanksgiving!
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